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Start giftingI Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki
A Memoir
Narrator
Jully Lee
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Translator
Anton Hur
Length
3 hours 56 minutes
Language
English
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“I truly enjoyed reading this book! Baek Sehee's use of conversations with her psychiatrist made me feel as if I was there with her in the office, learning about her mental health. Each chapter is a recording of her and her psychiatrist's actual conversations as well as an analysis of what she learned from that session. I think this is a great read for anyone interested in mental health and self-development. Even if I couldn't relate to her experiences first hand, there were several moments throughout the novel that made me stop and think about how they applied to my own life! ”
— Sarrah • Quail Ridge Books
Bloomsbury presents I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Sehee, read by Jully Lee.
The internationally bestselling therapy memoir translated by International Booker Prize shortlisted Anton Hur.
PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you?
ME: I don’t know, I’m – what’s the word – depressed? Do I have to go into detail?
Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her – what to call it? – depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends, performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favorite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like?
Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a twelve-week period, and expanding on each session with her own reflective micro-essays, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions, and harmful behaviors that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness. It will appeal to anyone who has ever felt alone or unjustified in their everyday despair.
Born in 1990, Baek Sehee studied creative writing in university before working for five years at a publishing house. For ten years, she received psychiatric treatment for dysthymia (persistent mild depression), which became the subject of her essays, and then I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki, books one and two. Her favorite food is tteokbokki, and she lives with her rescue dog Jaram.
Anton Hur was born in Stockholm, Sweden. He is the author of No One Told Me Not To and the novel Toward Eternity. His translations include Bora Chung’s Cursed Bunny, which was shortlisted for the International Booker Prize and a finalist for the National Book Award.